A divorce is scary, like heights when you’re acrophobic. “Don’t look down” becomes “don’t look back.” Probably “don’t look forward” either, because the past and the future are frightening. Living in the moment is the best option, and even then, it’s easy to trip and fall.
I will be fine. I know this because I have three daughters, and all I can think about is how I will care for them. After I take them to school, I go to work. When I get home, I distract myself with more work. A make-shift photo shoot, choosing the right black letter, then piecing it all together into the best explanation I can give of how I feel inside.
Even in the darkness, I need to create. That’s why, when I could stop crying, I pulled my computer onto my lap and made a divorce trailer. I’m not a private person, and I want you all to know that I’m going through something really hard. Also, though, I’m going to fight my way through it and come out on top. I am determined to have happier days.
In the meantime, I want to provide for my daughters and I’m a hard worker. I am talented and dependable. I’m the graphic designer of your dreams.
If you want to help, please share this post. Think of me when you have design needs. I’m available for freelance work. If you refer work to me, I will make you look so good. I will also be super grateful. I appreciate your support during this time, when it’s so hard to stand on my own.
Check out my portfolio at www.ilovemaryallen.com, and let me know if you want to get together to see my physical portfolio. It’s impressive.